Sunday, December 28, 2008

Is love enough?

When in a relationship, how does one gauge when it is enough? What will it take to fill up that void inside? Is it trust, laughter, time spent together, mutual understanding, or sex maybe... Some may say all of those qualities rolled up together is necessary. But what happens when a few of them are missing?

Is dating very much like taking a driver's license test? You are riding in the passenger seat judging the prospective driver all the while holding your clipboard and going through the list. By the end of the ride, all is left unchecked except for that box placed to the left of "love". 

When is love, alone, enough?



Thursday, December 25, 2008

#1


I have been meaning to start my own blogs for a couple months now. I was a user of Xanga since 2004 but slowly fell out of it. Some of my friends who have really dope blogs are all males. So I started to think..."Why aren't there any female bloggers in my circle of friends?!?!" After all, we have perspectives too, and it is a common fact that we talk (and think) much more than guys do. So, isn't it natural for us to have that much more to say/write! Therefore, I am here firstly to represent myself and secondly, the ladies. Be warned that you may not agree with what I decide to blog about, at least I hope not. Can you imagine a world where everyone agrees with each other? That is scary.

So what does little ol' me could possibly have to say? To be quite honest I was always a "blogger" since elementary school, except the old fashion way = pen and journal. In fact, I still own a journal now. That's where I jot down all my deep thoughts, feelings and ideas. Sometimes emotional and other times simply things I want to remember. Hey, I am not one to wear my heart on my sleeves so I am not planning on just spilling my guts to the world wide web. I do believe that certain personal things are better kept to yourself. But I will say this: I like to keep it real, say it how it is... Whether it is about romantic or friendly relationships with people, entertainment, dance, love, sex, fashion, arts, culture, business, anything. What I feel is what I will share. 

I truly believe in the power of knowledge. I want to share my knowledge with those that want to learn and I definitely hope to gain knowledge from others as well. Learning is a never ending circle in life, if you choose to. EMBRACE IT. 
So it's obvious that it is still Christmas. MERRY CHRISTMAS (whatever that means). I'm only saying it to be polite. Bitter? No, well maybe a little bit, but more so just bummed. How are people like me suppose to truly enjoy christmas all alone. Please tell  me that I am not the ONLY person in America to spend today alone. My boyfriend is in North Carolina with his family. Since we've dated I haven't been able to spend Christmas with him once (That's 3 years)! I totally understand though, it just sucks for me. Plus, each of my family member are also away from town spending it with their significant other's family. So, while everyone wasted their life savings on this year's Xmas, I spent the whole day alone acting a fool. Well actually my baby Yoshi was here to act a fool with me, so that's one thing I'm grateful for.... As far as the other thing, I'm not too sure how to feel about it. I received one gift today. It it just so happened to be this.... look what Santa left under the tree for me:
Hahahahahahaha. This is the most hilarious gift ever.  My good friend, Thia drove all the way from Irvine  just to give me the gift of.....pleasure? Maybe she sensed that I would be alone for the holidays. Good looking out Thia! Uhhh, seriously though this is my very fist, ahem, dildo. I'm not too sure what I am going to do with it. (Stop your dirty thoughts now!) In the sense that I haven't decided if I want to make use of it. LOL. I'll keep you posted. Maybe. Maybe Not. 

On another note, that's a picture of me right after my kenpo karate workout. I am proud to say that instead of stuffing my face in fatty foods for Christmas I stayed strict to my eating and workout plan. It was my first time trying kenpo and I really fell in love with it. It is officially my new favorite workout. Not many people know this but I was a green belt in Tae Kwan Do whose father was the instructor and was and still very much have the hots for Bruce Lee. So I guess it makes perfect sense for me to really enjoy the kenpo workout as much as I did. 

YES! Today is almost over and I'm so excited to move on into the upcoming days. Stay tuned, it'll be good. I promise.