CONFESSIONS

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2009-08-06T14:36:00.001-07:00

To whom it may concern: I have chopped my hair off and fled the state.

Quickie

2009-06-04T23:51:00.000-07:00

A quick post before I head out to San Francisco then Texas!

I Confess:

AHHHHHHHHHHHH.......it's a refreshing feeling of my body breaking from dance. Reminds me that I am still A-L-I-V-E.

Spotlight:

my obsession with Lykke Li continues...

"I'm workin' a sweat

but its all good

I'm breakin' my back

but it's all good

'cause I know I'll get it back

Yeah, I know your hands will clap

Yeah, I'm workin'

to make butter for my piece of bun

And if you say I'm not OK

then that's the goal

If you say there ain't no way that I could know

If you say I aim too high from down below

Well, say it now cause when I'm gone...

You'll be callin' but I won't be at the phone"

XOXO

Friday Night Date

2009-05-08T20:56:00.001-07:00

This may be the first Friday in the past 2 months straight that I decided to stay in. No parties, no drinks, no boys or girls. Just me and music... which happened to be the best Friday night date so far! So, for some unknown reason I decided to lock myself in "this" room all day and night & in the dark. Nothing on but sweet music in my ears.

I Confess:

As much as people see me as this wild person, I am very much a home body. As much as I love being social I equally love being alone. This is exactly what I needed.

Spotlight: Lykke Li

The best part about tonight is my new found love.

"hands down
i'm too proud for love
but with eyes shut
it's you i'm thinking of
but how we move from A to B?
it can't be up to me
'cause you don't know
eye to eye
thigh to thigh
i let go"

...pure genius

XOXO

HOLY CRAP

2009-05-04T19:59:00.000-07:00

I'm so behind on blogging that I've been dragging to update! I guess its not much of a help by procrastinating because then I'll just be more behind, so I will do a little at a time. YAY!

Lets do some quick highlights:

I was on America's Best Dance Crew Season 3 which was craaaazy fun!

I don't work or do school at the moment because I've been heavily involved with TM7

Other than dancing I've just been partying.... a lot

The most I've partied recently was 6 nights in a row. Lets see if I can break my own record haha.

I'm single

I moved back to my home town LONG BEACH (562!!!!)

I've become somewhat of a drifter/hippie. Although all my belongings are "stored" in Long Beach I've actually been living wherever I can sleep. LOL. I know it sounds crazy but its been kind of adventurous

& eloborations to highlights will follow... eventually :)

Spotlight: YOSHi

Meet the man of my life. My mommy gave him to me as a Christmas present in 2007. From day one I could tell we were just meant to be. Not to mention he was the first Christmas present I had ever received from either of my parents. They don't really believe in the whole Christmas thing. So I was in complete shock when I visted her in Texas to find that she had something for me. Then coming back to Cali with him was just pure fate. The airlines told me that they were only allowed to have 5 pets on the flight and that it was already full but somone who was scheduled to have a pet carry on just cancelled! Since then we've been insperable! I never thought I'd be much of a dog person, until I had one of my own. Now I truly understand the meaning of dog lovers. There's only one way to describe it:

"A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbol means nothing to him. A waterlogged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. It was really quite simple, and yet we humans, so much wiser and more sophisticated, have always had trouble figuring out what really counts and what does not. Sometimes it took a dog with bad breath, worse manners, and pure intentions to help us see."
— John Grogan, from Marly & Me

I confess:

This past weekend was yet another LA weekend. Thursday night was Level 3 - Fanny Pack's Shoe Release Party and Friday night was Highlands - Super Cr3w Performance. It was like an ABDC reunion! Much fun with much draaaanks. But at the end of the weekend I came to this one conclusion:

"LA guys are either GAME or GAY"

till next time...

XOXO

TRYING.

2009-03-22T21:40:00.000-07:00

I know, I need a major update. I'm trying to update. I'm trying many things right now. It's TRYING OVERLOAD! It's scary but in the end will be worth it, I believe. Things have been crazy. Things have changed in so many ways, good and bad, I think. I will update soon I promise...

"I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through our fingers

I don't want to try now

All that's left is goodbye to

Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here"

-PCD

i'm stoked!

2009-02-05T13:23:00.000-08:00

things to look forward to today:

1. Running again

2. Reading more of Twilight (I'm a 3/4 done yayay)

3. Call backs for Alvin and the Chipmunks sequel movie

4. "Freak the Vote" Party

Is love enough?

2008-12-28T11:40:00.001-08:00

When in a relationship, how does one gauge when it is enough? What will it take to fill up that void inside? Is it trust, laughter, time spent together, mutual understanding, or sex maybe... Some may say all of those qualities rolled up together is necessary. But what happens when a few of them are missing?

Is dating very much like taking a driver's license test? You are riding in the passenger seat judging the prospective driver all the while holding your clipboard and going through the list. By the end of the ride, all is left unchecked except for that box placed to the left of "love".

When is love, alone, enough?

#1

2008-12-25T23:33:00.001-08:00

I have been meaning to start my own blogs for a couple months now. I was a user of Xanga since 2004 but slowly fell out of it. Some of my friends who have really dope blogs are all males. So I started to think..."Why aren't there any female bloggers in my circle of friends?!?!" After all, we have perspectives too, and it is a common fact that we talk (and think) much more than guys do. So, isn't it natural for us to have that much more to say/write! Therefore, I am here firstly to represent myself and secondly, the ladies. Be warned that you may not agree with what I decide to blog about, at least I hope not. Can you imagine a world where everyone agrees with each other? That is scary.

So what does little ol' me could possibly have to say? To be quite honest I was always a "blogger" since elementary school, except the old fashion way = pen and journal. In fact, I still own a journal now. That's where I jot down all my deep thoughts, feelings and ideas. Sometimes emotional and other times simply things I want to remember. Hey, I am not one to wear my heart on my sleeves so I am not planning on just spilling my guts to the world wide web. I do believe that certain personal things are better kept to yourself. But I will say this: I like to keep it real, say it how it is... Whether it is about romantic or friendly relationships with people, entertainment, dance, love, sex, fashion, arts, culture, business, anything. What I feel is what I will share.

I truly believe in the power of knowledge. I want to share my knowledge with those that want to learn and I definitely hope to gain knowledge from others as well. Learning is a never ending circle in life, if you choose to. EMBRACE IT.

So it's obvious that it is still Christmas. MERRY CHRISTMAS (whatever that means). I'm only saying it to be polite. Bitter? No, well maybe a little bit, but more so just bummed. How are people like me suppose to truly enjoy christmas all alone. Please tell me that I am not the ONLY person in America to spend today alone. My boyfriend is in North Carolina with his family. Since we've dated I haven't been able to spend Christmas with him once (That's 3 years)! I totally understand though, it just sucks for me. Plus, each of my family member are also away from town spending it with their significant other's family. So, while everyone wasted their life savings on this year's Xmas, I spent the whole day alone acting a fool. Well actually my baby Yoshi was here to act a fool with me, so that's one thing I'm grateful for.... As far as the other thing, I'm not too sure how to feel about it. I received one gift today. It it just so happened to be this.... look what Santa left under the tree for me:

Hahahahahahaha. This is the most hilarious gift ever. My good friend, Thia drove all the way from Irvine just to give me the gift of.....pleasure? Maybe she sensed that I would be alone for the holidays. Good looking out Thia! Uhhh, seriously though this is my very fist, ahem, dildo. I'm not too sure what I am going to do with it. (Stop your dirty thoughts now!) In the sense that I haven't decided if I want to make use of it. LOL. I'll keep you posted. Maybe. Maybe Not.

On another note, that's a picture of me right after my kenpo karate workout. I am proud to say that instead of stuffing my face in fatty foods for Christmas I stayed strict to my eating and workout plan. It was my first time trying kenpo and I really fell in love with it. It is officially my new favorite workout. Not many people know this but I was a green belt in Tae Kwan Do whose father was the instructor and was and still very much have the hots for Bruce Lee. So I guess it makes perfect sense for me to really enjoy the kenpo workout as much as I did.

YES! Today is almost over and I'm so excited to move on into the upcoming days. Stay tuned, it'll be good. I promise.